Here in Ohio we have just had such a beautiful couple of weeks..the weather has warmed, the sun has been shining and plants and trees are blooming. I have purple phlox all bloomed out and gorgeous, my dogwood and crabapple trees are covered in white flowers, my lilac bush is bloomed and smelling wonderful, and even plants like coralbells, sedum and hosta are blooming!
There are yellow finches, cardinals, blue jays and other small birds on the feeders. The chipmunks and squirrels are everywhere…I just love this time of year. Of course, my allergies are acting up too which is not a good thing but thanks to allergy meds I’m hanging in there. I planted small pots indoors of herbs and veggies and some of them are doing well and some haven’t done a thing! I’ll transplant the healthy ones to outdoor pots around Beltane..the ones that aren’t growing I’ll replace with plants from the garden center. We are hoping to build a garden shed/storage shed soon too. We had to take out some dead trees this year and trying to decide what we are going to do with the empty space they left behind. I hate losing trees but I’m hoping to plant flowering bushes or ornamental trees in their place. I’m anxious to get my flowers planted too but here in Ohio its best to wait until around Mother’s Day to do it..we can get frost pretty late in the year..for instance, it was only 32 degrees night before last!
Beltane is coming up fast..I’ve got to buy a white tablecloth for my altar then I’ll top it with a grass green scarf to represent the color of spring and things blooming. I’ll decorate it then for Beltane which I’ll discuss in the next post after I’ve done it! We are hoping to celebrate with a fire in the woods, planting my herbs outside, offering a gift to the faeries, and fixing a feast!
Here’s hoping you all are having a beautiful Spring too…remember, You can make it so..just go outside and embrace the Earth waking up around you! Thursday is Earth day so do something good for you Mother Earth..at least take a walk and maybe pick up some trash while you’re walking or drop some wildflower seeds along the way, or plant a tree or two! Say a prayer to the Goddess and God for the Earth and her gifts.
Blessed Be, Autumn
The new moon is coming up in the next couple of days…this is a time for growth and healing and new beginnings or new projects. Ask the God and Goddess for their help with this….I will be asking for healing from emotional hurt that was dealt to me this last couple of weeks by someone who claims to love me….my mother. She has made her feelings for me perfectly clear….while still claiming she loves me, she said some really hurtful things to me which tells how she really feels. She’s always been difficult and my life with her is riddled with bad memories. My siblings and I never had a soft place to fall with her. We could never please her, never get her unconditional love, very rarely drew a positive word from her. After this last couple of weeks, and the fact that I’m almost 52 years old, I AM DONE!! Done trying to get along with her, done trying to please her, done trying to make her happy. While I won’t tear the family apart by having a full blown separation from her, I am separating from her emotionally and more physically than I have in the past. She has hurt me many times..more than I can ever relate…..but this last time is the worse. I’m too stable (LOL) to let it affect my life totally in a negative way..but finding out how she really feels about me hasn’t been easy to take. Thank god I have my other siblings, my husband and daughters and a great group of friends…I am not alone. I hold my daughters dear and will never hurt them as I have been…
So on to more positive news…my herbs and veggies are growing in their little pots…once it warms up a bit more, I can move them outside until it is time to pot them. Not all of the seeds are blooming yet…some take longer than others. My book of shadows is coming along. Its been alot of work and time consuming but all fun! I love seeing it come together and I think its beautifully done and I’m very happy with it. My sister, daughter and I are enjoying working on our books together. My daughter Willow, sorrowfully, hasn’t received her book yet…..but she is also working on her pages. It’ll be fun when her book gets here and we can have days we are all together working on them.
Beltane is coming up fast…we’re going to spend a day making small maypoles for our altars and flower circlets for our hair. I’m hoping my husband will help me have a bonfire in our woods that night. Beltane is a lusty festival! All about fire, dancing, prosperity, fertility and fairies! A fun and happy time, knowing that warm summer days are on their way. It’s a good time to start gardens too. A feast is expected with good wine and good food! We will be giving gifts to the faeries to let them know we are aware of them and appreciate their help in our gardens!
So again, on the new moon, start that new project or start healing, and recognize that the Goddess is there to help you.
Blessed Be, Autumn